It has been a week now…that he has been gone.He had the best last day. He had love all around him, and he never suffered.I am suffering though, because my best boy is gone.Earl is gone. My Babo. My booboobear.My heart is broken.There is a huge empty space in my life that he once unapologetically […]
Today is International Overdose Awareness Day. Overdose deaths have steadily increased every year for the past 11 years, despite the “War on Drugs” and the “Opioid Crisis” attention in the media. One number puts deaths in 2020 up by over 29% – 93,000 + people. Overdoses in 2020 were heavily fueled and driven by not […]
People with childhood and early life trauma process things differently from people who didn’t have that experience. Not better. Not worse. Just different. That is just a fact. I am no exception to processing things from a place of trauma I have learned some things recently, things that no one should ever […]
Numbers are never enough; like dollars in my bank account; like in days left of a weekend; like in minutes on the phone. Or numbers are always too much; like on my bathroom scale; like the thermometer outside; like the days still remaining until you come home. But letters – they are perfect. When you […]
There is a man who comes every Sunday He seems so happy while we all wait for it to be time He is friendly with some of the other visitors, as if greeting old friends All the guards know him and greet him I am usually withdrawn, and do not talk much to others The […]
Thin lines, often blurry lines between yes and no. Between dark and light. Between comfort and pain. Between life and death. My life has been a struggle with those lines and what side I should be on. Who I should be loyal to. The men that battle on each side of those lines, […]
My dog is a therapy dog. He has been a certified therapy dog for almost 4 years – over 2/3 of his life. He has graduated from obedience training, and gone through behavior assessments and aptitude tests, and passed every one. My dog has had a little autistic girl fall in love with him, and […]
Fifteen years ago, a somber President G.W. Bush addressed a nation in shock – and said, among other things – “The world will see that the strength of this nation is found in the character and courage of everyday citizens.” Fifteen years ago. It was a Tuesday. I was living in San Diego with my […]
Turns out that narcissistic sociopaths are drawn to me. Plain and simple. I like to think other folks are interested in me also, but for sure I am a magnet for these types. I fascinate, challenge, and then threaten them, in that order. That has been the arc of many of my dating disasters in […]
The Dewey-eyed Pessimist 
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